when i'm tired or stress...
it's best to leave me alone....
any small matter can make me blow my top...

dat's all i've gt to say....... 11:37 PM

hmmmmm......


I SHALL BE SAYIN THIS FOR E ONE LAST TYM...

TO ALL THOSE FCUKING SPAMMERS...
SAY WAT U WAN ABT ME...
SAY DAT I'M A FLIRT OR WATEVER SHIT...
COS I DUN CARE...
BECOS AT THE END OF E DAY...
ALL I'LL SAY IS, I CAN STILL LIFT MY HEAD HIGH UP...
I DO THINGS MY WAY,MY STYLE....
THIS IS MY BLOG N I CAN SAE WADEVER THINGS I LYK...

TRUST ME...
U'LL HAF UR OWN RETRIBUTIONS SOON....
DUN BELIEVE ME???..
NT MY PROBLEM....

SO SAY WADEVER U WAN ABT ME BAHX... 11:19 PM

here to blog le bahx..

jus reach home abt 1 hr ago after taking e lab test..
was alrite bahx..

later gg back sch to take e common test for e same module again...

tiredness...

maybe when i'm tired will i get emo bahx...
anyway...
haf a gd rest last nite but still nt enuff...
but mood is getting better liao bahx....

dunno wad else to sae le bahx...

i'll learn to let go of u... =) 11:58 AM

haiz...

still feelin moodless nw..

haiz...

dun haf e mood to study for e test tml...

my mind is in a mess nw..
nt a gd timin at all... 11:00 PM

haiz....

wrk frm 7am-2pm today...

whole dae moodless...
tml havin e lab n common test for e communications and netwrking liao le,,,
but i lack e mood to study nw...

if given a choice between life n death nw..
i'll definitely chose death....
i'm very tired of all tis liao le....
nw i really regret gg back to wrk liao le if i noe this kind of things will happen again...

haiz....

hw i really wish U can give me jus one chance???
hw i really wish U wont shut e door on me???
hw i really wish U'll understand everything dat i do is all becos of u???
hw i really wish we can be together???

haiz..

just half a yr more n i'll b waitin for U for 2 yrs liao le...
wo shi zhen de ai ni...
ni zhi dao ma???


beyond: zhen de ai ni



F4:wo shi zhen de hen ai ni




dat's all for nw le bahx...
moodless.... :'( 3:10 PM

i will still wait for u no matter how long it is de...
i swear.....
if u wan shut e door on me...
den better wish dat i'll b dead soon...
without u...
my life is meaningless.... =( 6:37 AM

hmmmm.... din blog ytd nite...

so shall blog nw bahx..

ytd went sch frm 8am-10am... after dat went amk hub with ken to walk ard.... den haf breakfast cum lunch...

haha...

den jiu leave ard 11.10 am lyk dat to go wrk at 12pm...
haha..

reach wrkplace den wan stand at e orange counter with e promoter aunty den after a while jennifer jiu call me n ask me go dwn to help her wif e delivery n one of e uncles delivering fruits drove me there...

haha..

it was fun sittin in e back of a lorry....
den after helping her all these liao le..
went back pt to collect another customer order den jiu drove down to ubi there...
haha..


den at the end, reach back pt at ard 3pm...

anyway... overall wrk was slack ytd...
haha...
shall enjoy while it last....

haha...

gg to sch later frm 10am-4pm later... n rushin dwn to wrk later...
tiredness....

dat's all for nw le bahx... tc everyone... 8:11 AM

hmmmm.....

here to blog liao le...
went sch frm 9am-ard 12.30pm...

reach home den jiu went pt de ntuc n help mother carry e things she bought..
haha...

after dat haf lunch den jiu rot liao le.....

up till nw...
still cant find e mood to study..
sianz..


common test r coming next wk followed by e final exams...
stress....

wrk n studies r making me stress....
hopefully i'll haf e strength to carry on bahx...

tiredness.... 9:32 PM

here to blog liao le...

went sch frm 10am-11.30am today..
cos end early...
went pt after dat to shop for some ingredients to cook for lunch later..

went for ard 20mins lyk dat jiu go hme le..
reach hme, prepared e ingredients,cook n eat le...

den spend e rest of e day rottin at home...

dat's all forr today liao le bahx..
lazy to post long....


i'm still waitin for u... ni zhi dao ma??? 10:55 PM

hmmmm.....

here to blog liao le...
wrk frm 7am-5pm today...

for e 1st tym for e past few wrking days....
my mood was gd.....

n it's been a long tym since i last haf tis kind of mood liao le..

haha...

nth much abt today liao le..
jus spend my tym rotting...

it's a new yr liao le..
n i thot i could give up on u....
n yet i cant...
haf u ever tink abt y i'm still waitin for u ma???? 9:36 PM

haiz...

wrk frm 3-10pm today...

overall... wrk was alrite bahx..
except for some matters...
which makes me dulan..

dun wish to tok abt it..

feelin ultra stress nw wif wrk n studies...
haiz... 11:48 PM

lazy to blog...

sch ended at ard 12pm..
feelin very fcuk up nowadays..

was actually gg to wrk later at 2pm de..
but jus nw in sch shiou called me so decided to went out wif him...

n nt go to wrk today..
tiredness..
moodless...

if only e supervisors n fatty could listen to my comments abt e orange counter...
n all i can say nw is...
it'll b a total failure tis yr.... even if i'm ard to help out...
haiz... 1:45 PM

tired n lazy to blog....

wrk is so fcuk up nowadays...

only someone will noe y...

haiz....

moodless.... 11:42 PM










hmmmm...

so in love wif e above 3 songs nw....
haha...

anyway..

skipped sch today...
n stay at hme rest...

tiredness....

n moodless to go sch today...

anyway... thks jack for givin me it....
haha...

dat's all for today liao bahx...

laziness+ tiredness+moodless... 10:08 PM

hmmmm....

here to update liao le...

went wrk today frm 6-9am todae den rush dwn to sch after dat...
end sch at ard 2.40pm today but i skip e 4-6pm de lecture...
dun feel lyk gg...

sianz....

nw tink of wrk jiu sianz liao le....
stress...

loss for words nw...
haiz...

it's best to leave me alone if i'm tired.... =)

gd nite pple... 12:00 AM

haiz...
lazy to blog much today..

feelin very fcuk-up today at wrk..
sianz...

dunno wat else to say le....

dat's all for now le bahx...

will update more tml when my mood gets better....

i'm missin u badly... 11:44 PM

back frm wrk ard 10.05pm lyk dat...
ran all e way home frm wrkplace....

jus one wrk describe me now...

tiredness.....


wrk frm 7am-10pm today...
sianz....
n today i admit i exploded while at wrk...
wadever e division manager for my department makes abt e orange counter really irritates me to e max...
make me very dulan..
den in e end.. haf a small quarrel wif him over some matters...
as if i'll care abt his rank...
i'm not afraid of anything lorx...

come make my life difficult if u dare....
n i'll accept ur challenge...

n i'm e 1st person to tok back to him when no one else dare in e whole branch...
haha...

anyway...
wrk was very fcuk up today becos of dat as well as some other matters..
wth...
anyway...since i've chose to come back..
i'll face those challenges n i'll nt give up at all cost...

anyway...

hurt my right shoulder while wrkin today...
n there's pain everytym i move my right arm etc..

jus applied some medicated oil onto it....
haiz..
hope can recover by tml morning bah..
even if it doesnt....
i'm prepared to take tis risk..
n i wont give up......


dat's all for today liao bahx...


i kip lyin to myself dat i've forget u since it's a new yr liao le.....
haiz.... i'm still waitin n waitin for u.... =( 11:10 PM

hmmm....

here to blog liao le...

today went sch frm 10am-2pm..
skip e 2-4pm de lecture..
dun feel lyk going..

den went wrk from 3-10pm..
anyway...

today get back my other result n i pass it...
yeah...
though it's a jus pass only...
but better den nth...

exams r coming soon liao le...
feelin very stress nw....
as well as stress abt wrk as well...

haiz...

wrking morning tml...
sianz....

since i've chose to come back to wrk..
i'll handle wadever things dat is throw at me....
n i'll survive till e end...

hopefully i can maintain my calmness bahx....


i thot when e new yr haf come,
i can really forget u...
but...
afterall.. i still cant...
wishin for e impossible..
haiz... 10:56 PM

back frm sch ard 11.30am....

counting dwn to wrk in abt 1 n 1/2 hrs tyms..

guess today wrk shld b quite slack bahz...
haha...

e exam timetable is out liao le...
will b havin exams on e 12th,13th n 15th of feb...
luckily still gt a wk to enjoy cny...
better den nth...

common test startin frm e wk after next liao le...
plenty of lab reports not done yet...
wif some overdue....

stress + tiredness....

gg off for my lunch before gg to wrk later....
will update tonight if i'm free bahx.... 12:20 PM

hmmm...
sch end early todaY...
e last lesson is cancelled...
yeah...
haha...

anyway.. i gt back one of e results n i pass it..
nw still waitin for e other results.....

though it's jus a pass..
it's better den nth...
haha...

later gg to yck mrt to meet jack for maybe movie+dinner+shop...
haha...

gonna go buy those things i've been wanting if possible later...
haha...

dat's all for nw le bahx..

exam timetable coming out tml liao le...
feelin very stress nw......
haiz....

tryin to maintain my calmness nw..... =) 3:39 PM

here to blog for a short while b4 gg sch....

feelin sickly nw n tiredness...
sianz..

sch starting at 10am today n will end ard 5pm today..
hope e last lesson will end early today...

wrkin day tml.... but e main aim is to help set up e orange counter...
haha...

it'll b e 3rd straight yr i'm doing dat...
yeah....

will b busy wif studies n wrk frm next wk onwards liao le n hopefully i'm able to last e distance bah.....


tis mth is one mth where any wrong decision dat i made abt studies or wrk will cause my dwnfall..... hopefully i can successfully achieve wad i wan bahx.....

dat's all for nw le bahz..
will b updatin tonight if possible..... =) 8:22 AM

hmmmm...

here to blog liao le...

went pt de Xtra 3 tyms today..
sianz..

1st tym before sch starts to give ah tan some CDs...
2nd tym went to find jennifer but she busy.... den jiu go hme....
3rd tym went to meet xiong-ge for dinner den chat abt some stuffs after which wait a while for jennifer to b free den tok to her abt my cny schedule..

sianz....

common tests n lab test startin 2 wks frm nw n exams startin on e 11th of feb...
any wrong decision i made for my studies n wrk will surely cause my downfall...
haiz...

feelin super stress nw.... abt gettin gd results for my studies n wrk....
haiz....


tml gettin back e results liao le..
hope can pass bahx..
praying.....

moodless+tiredness....

haiz... 9:13 PM

gd morning everyone...

still feelin tired nw...
sch startin at 10am today...
n i tink today i wont skip sch n study till 6pm bahx...

dunno wad else to say le...

gg to pt soon to pass ah tan some CDs before gg to sch frm there....

dat's all for nw le bahz... tc everyone...

i believe in fate... =) 8:20 AM

hmmm...

wrk from 7am-5pm today...
tiredness...
sianz..

gettin tired easily nowadays for some unknown reasons...
nw i jus hoping dat tis yr will b a gd yr for me...

nw is wait for tues faster come den can noe my other 2 common test results liao le..
if can pass jiu hao le..

perhaps my failure to get a pass for e module dat i suprisingly fail haf affected my mood for e past few days bahx...

if on tues i failed either one of my other 2 module de common test..
den guess i'll b very moody liao le bahx...
so disappointed wif myself...

haiz...

nth much to say liao bahx...
tiredness + moodless.... 10:13 PM

hmmmmm......

here to blog liao le..
wrk frm 7am-5pm...
was expectin to go out wif ??????? today de..
but changed to next wed...
nvm..i'll wait....

haha...

wrk today was alrite bahx...
jus dat some aunties quarrel again over a fcukin small matter but nvm..
used to it liao le....

tml wrkin 7am again...
tiredness....

gettin tired easily nowadays for no reason...
sianz...

hate it...

hope dat next wk when i get back my other 2 common test results will b a pass at least bahx..
already failed one liao le..
sianz...

dunno wat else to say le bahx...

to dat someone....

seein u again today bring back e same feelings again liao le...
i doubt i can really give up on u bahx..
but jus wanna tell u one thing...
no matter hw bad u treat me or wat...
i wont leave u alone de.....
i'll still be there for u.....
cos i simple love u too much liao le bahx.... =) 9:34 PM

here to blog awhile b4 gg wrk...

hope today at wrk can slack..
haha...

still feelin tired nw....
din really slp well ytd nite...

time is running out for me for my studies liao le...
hopefully i can pass my other two modules de common test when i get back my results next wk...
already fail one liao le n i dun wish to fail another or even all....

nid to kip e fire within me burning at least after e exams...

hopefully today after wrk can go out wif ???????.....

dat's all for nw le bahx.,.,,
tc everyone... 6:34 AM

hmmmm.....

here to blog liao le...

went sch frm 10am-3pm plus cos e last lecture end early at ard 3.30pm..
haha...

anyway... get back e common test result for e vacuum module n i get a F...
was shocked to fail it when i was confident of gettin at least a pass..
haiz....

but nvm.. cant change e fact liao le....
anyway...
make a last min decision to join my classmates for bball..
the thought of playin bball was too tempting..
den played frm 4-5pm...

e pain in my toe is almost gone...
though sad to say...
my fitness is still not fully back yet..
was struggling throughout...
gettin tired easily nowadays even at wrk...

tink maybe next wk will start running again bahx....
but soon i guess i'll get back my fitness...

tml wrkin day again...
somemore is wrkin morning but luckily at nite gg out...
haha...
tiredness.....

dat's all for today liao le bahx... 9:49 PM

hmmm...
here to blog liao le...

jus came back frm amk watchin AVP 2 wif shiou...
my ratin for e movie is 3/5...

e endin was lame...
one atomic bomb drop on e state n everybody died includin e aliens n e predator..
only a few pple whu were already on e helicopter leavin e state survived...
lol...

today went sch frm 8am-ard 11am only..
bored...

was expectin to get back my common test results today but teacher say must wait till nexrt wk...
sianz...

i wan faster noe in terms of my studies
where do i stand nw...

only left 4 more wks before e sem ends n abt 6 more wks away frm exams..
tym is running out for me liao le..
gonna wrk harder frm now on...

still haven decide my wrkin schedule for e cny period...
sianz...

guess i will nt b wrkin so often lyk last yr bahx...
though i admit i do regret a little coming back to wrk... but i'll not run frm it again...

anyway...
e toenail haf started to grow back liao le n nw i'll only feel e pain when i apply pressure on it...
guess it'll b soon before i'm back to my sports liao le..
haha....

dat's all for today liao le bahx..

will b off to dreamland soon....

after all dat haf happen last yr esp wif ur dat msg on christmas day itself at ard 4.12am lyk dat...
perhaps i'm startin to let go of u liao le...
n i hope u'll feel happy when u c tis....
wish u all e best for tis yr bahx... 10:51 PM

hmmmm....

here to blog liao le..
went sch frm 9am to 12 plus pm today...

sch was slack..

den after sch bused dwn to pt to buy some ingredients for my cooking for tml bahx..
den also chat wif andy for a while...
haha...

after jiu off n reached home ard 1.30pm...

getting tired nowadays easily....

nth much to say le bahx...

to dat someone...

honestly speaking....
perhaps my love for u is startin to fade as days passes by..

n if u readin tis nw...
i'm sure u'll be very very happy bahx...
as tis is wad u've always wanted it to happen... 4:04 PM

hmmmmm.....

here to blog liao le....

wrk frm 7am-1pm again today...
basically slacked throughout....
haha....

n yes... my juniors r beginning to get better as days pass...
hope dat tis yr de cny will b gd...
haha....

nw still tinking whether wan go back malaysia to celebrate cny wif my cousin n my grandma tis comin cny....
3 yrs neva go back celebrate wif them liao le...

wondering...
haf to made up my mind by tis wk...

anyway...

ytd went to e countdwn at esplanade there n c e fireworks...
but b4 dat... watch I am legend wif andy n gang....
e ending is lame.. dun really match e movie... sianz....
but overall quite ok bahz....

den after dat ard 12.30am lyk dat...
trained back to amk wif tom n andy den take 165 go hme....
but b4 gg hme...
haf supper den chat for a while....

den in e end..reached home ard 2.30am lyk dat...
tiredness... but i'm still glad i'm able to wake up on tym to go wrk...


hmmmmm...

anyway.....
e toenail is starting to grow back liao le which is gd news for me...
it's happening much faster den expected....

n once again...

i must thk all e aunty at e wrkplace for their care n concern...
everydae i go wrk kip asking me whether i've recover ornot liao le....
once i've fully recover frm it....
e new me will b born...
haha....


sch startin tml liao le...
but nvm...
left one last mth to really wrk hard liao le...
i'm in my final sem n i'll avoid taking too big a risk abt studies....

dat's all for nw le...
shall be off to slp liao le...
gd nite pple.... =) 10:48 PM